Tragic Tuesday

I am having a very up and down week - i am all over the place.... After having a Mad Monday and feeling sore from bootcamp i thought the best idea would be to go skiing. This was a great idea until i come off, badly... very very badly. To the point where i thought i had poped my wet suit i came off that hard... needless to say i now have some very special bruises on my rib cage where the padding on my suit goes. It hurts to cough and laugh, i am contemplating if i might have even cracked a rib. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to check on why i might be so exhausted so i might get that looked at as well. It is hard to imagine how when we were out skiing on Monday after work that no less than 2 hours later there was a wild storm that hit parts of town - i cant find any pics to put up, but it was very impressive!!! I was looking at the wind thinking my car is going to be blown away, it was really quite concerning, then the rain started and the thunder and lightning. It was great watching the "show" only until a lightning bolt hit the shead accross the road from where we were, i would guess at less than 15m away. There was a huge crack and everything went blue and pink, but the worst thing was that i felt the warmth from this on my legs... I decided i had enough of watching and scurried back to the safety of the shead i was in.
This was all fine and good but Tuesday rocked around and i was trying on my wedding dress again as there had been further alterations made - and i was feeling pretty good about myself thinking i looked great in my dress and it was very slimming and the rest of that, so i got home and announced to Tim that i would like my measurements taken again as i had not had them done since the 01/02/07.... I decided i didnt like them and i dont know what is going on, i guess i have been cheating myself out of too many meals... *sigh* i can only blame myself, i have gained a cm in my chest, i cant work this out as i am positive my breasts are looking smaller - Tim assures me they are, i am guessing this is due to my back getting bigger, or am i just fooling myself? then i found that i have an extra cm on my waist and an extra cm on my hips.... I have no justification in relation to this... I dont know what i can do other than keep on pushing and tidy up my act - i cant afford to get any bigger or i wont fit in my dress - it fits like a glove as it is.

So there is nothing less to say other than i have had a tragic tuesday.....

Bec
xoxo