oops

Ok well, i was trying to work out how to get a pic up next to my profile and this was the result..... oh well, i have a pic up there now so there you go. A pic of me, a bit dashing i think... LOL. The pic was taken about 12 months ago for my mum's 50th b'day.

Have a great weekend all

So very tired

OMG!!!! I am so tired, i am having trouble keeping up with my sleep at the moment.... bit frustrating as it is so hard to drag yourself out of bed in the mornings.... and i have to admit that this week i have been really poor with my ability to get up and going to the gym in the morning. As a result i have kinda fallen off the wagon this week.... But i think the rest has done my body good - might be fooling myself, but as soon as i have taken the few days off my body weight has dropped a kg..... I dont know but i surely need to find out why i am so bloody tired. It might also have something to do with the night i had, eating beautiful thai food and then spending the rest of the night paying dearly for it.... and i think it has followed me into today.

But i had the worst experience yesterday in the shower.... i am minding my own business (well actually i was seeing what my flexed muscles looked like in the water... i have too much time on my hands) washing my hair and i went to pick up the conditioner bottle, and low and behold there is a SPIDER under the bottle, looking at me... i swear it was looking at me. I start screaming and calling for my partner to come and deal with it. He looked and said it is only small just was it down the hole.... not something i felt comfortable about either.... so i mustered up some guts and sprayed the water on it.... this created a swirling effect and the spider then ended up in the middle of the floor where i was standing..... I am yelling again at this point, and my partner is laughing at me (not helping).... he eventually got rid of it for me, not without using far too much water and my time (i was already running late for work). But i am over it now, however not something i would like to go through again.

love the muscle

Had a bit of an off week this week where work seemed to just take over my life and consume everything... I was working 12 hour days and therefore unable to get to the gym - did get there earlier in the week and then late in the week but missed a few days in between. Not much i can do about it really. Although this week has been a real week of personal discovery for me both physically and psychologically. I have realised in the last few days when i flex muscles you can actually see them under my skin!!! YAY and there is starting to be some real definition especially in my quads and when i flex my upper body you can start to see my bi's and tri's and also the upper part of my chest mucle where it runs into my shoulder and arms.... its quite facinating really.... :D LOL. As a result i am like a kid with a new toy... always in front of the mirror trying to flex something....
Psycholgically i am just so proud of myself... and i feel really good about my body immage - i can walk out my door and be confidant in what and who i am and no matter what that is ok.... Although i can see some need for improvement in certain area's but i get up every morning and smile at myself and say "i look good" and not feel guilty about accepting someone's compliment when they give it to me.
Gym - i worked as hard as i could and spent a day or so sore from pushing with weights, but enjoyable..... I have been really working my legs in the hope to lift my rear a bit more.... and working hard on my chest and back... i would love to have defined back muscles... not there yet but apparently when i move a certain way my partner says that they can be seen....
Food - been pretty good not much to report there - have been experimenting with protein shakes and a few protein bars as they are both needed for some days at work when i am too busy to heat up a meal. Have changed protein powders which has made an improvement as the one i had was just all shades of wrong, and i couldnt get through it.... But i got musashi chocolate and that seems to be ok at the moment. Will get some of the new product from Sue when it becomes available.
Crashed a bit mentally this week with work and wedding plans... neither seem to be working well for me and i am not liking either much.... Thank God training is working well for me.... Getting into to silly season with race day's and christmas party's has been good i have been able to arrange being on call for those so this way it is a good excuse not to drink... Not everyone understands the no drinking policy that i have created....
As always i have raved on enough..... I am looking at starting my new challenge already, As much as i have struggled through parts of this one, and i know some people have copped the brunt of that in a few emails of my complaining and asking stupid questions... I am over that "hump" and am ready to keep moving... i can now see this as a real lifestyle program and not just a quick fix and something that i can continue for a lifetime.... simple and sweet i like it. Have briefly spoken to Sue about my next program, i have called it "muscle in march" as that is when my wedding is and my goal is to have lean muscle that is defined by then... i think it is realistic and achieveable to aim for that.... To get it done in time i will have to start on xmas day.... not good but fixable. I think i will start a bodybliz comp then as well - i didnt enter one this 12 weeks, but i think i will next time.... Cant wait.

exhausted

Well after starting off with a bad day yesterday it slowly got worse.... In the end i was running out the door for a work matter at 3.30pm and didnt get back untill after 9pm. Which means that the gym was closed and i was not able to do my upper body.... So i went home and had tea, and then prepared snacks for today and went to bed....

Woke up this morning and was just so exhausted from the investigation last night that i couldnt pull myself out of bed, i think i am lucky to be at work today. Because there is minimal staff i was unable to start late today and get to the gym a bit later so i will have to squash everything in tonight and over the weekend... hard as i will be on call, so cant wander too far at all.

Will be out of the office most of the day again today and so wont get half the work done that i would like to.

At least i am still eating clean... one thing to hang on to.

The lost Dr Seuss Poem

I love my job....

I love my job, I love the pay!
I love it more and more each day
I love my boss, she is the best!
I love her boss and all the rest.

I love my office and its location. I hate to have to go on vacation.
I love my furniture drab and grey, and piles of paper that grow each day!
I think my job is really swell there's nothing else I love so well.
I love to work among my peers, I love their leers and jeers and sneers.
I love my computer and its software; I hug if often though it wont care.
I love each program and every file, I'd love them more if they worked a while.

I'm happy to be here, I am, I am
I'm the happiest slave of the firm, I am.
I love this work. I love these chores
I love the meetings with deadly bores.
I love my job - I'll say it again - I even love those friendly men.
Those friendly men who've come today, in clean white coats to take me away!!!

What a day

I have decided i am an emotional eater as i am really wanting to eat something i know i shouldnt... like chocolate, they keep the fun size chocolates in the fridge and sell them for 50c each and it is so tempting. But i have told my work mates i am struggling today and every time i go near the kitchen they run in after me to make sure i am not in the chocolate.

Had a great HIIT session today so i figgure that will have gotten rid of some of my anger and frustration with work at the moment. Everything is so up in the air that i dont know what is going on and i am having trouble with my wedding plans....
At least i can control my training and nutrition and something in my life is consistant.

Work is shit, and i am miserable and want to transfer to another office and that has been approved but i cant yet go because there is a shortage of staff here in this office. I can understand this i am not unreasonable but i cant wait the 3 or so months they want me to... my wedding is in 17 and a half weeks and i would like to spend some of that in the town i am getting married in so i can actually plan it instead of having other people do it for me.... otherwise i feel i will get there on the day and have to compliment everyone else on what a great job they done on planning my wedding for me.... not what i was really hoping for as a bride!!!!
On top of that my grandfather is sick - very sick, he is nearly 91 and i dont know if he will make it to his 91st birthday let alone Christmas or my wedding.... and he lives in Mildura as well where i want to be, so it just makes it very emotinally draining on me.

Statistics

Ok i thought i would update everyone on a few stats of myself and it will help me think that i am improving something as well....
My 12 week challenge started on the

02/10/2006
Shoulders - didnt get a reading that was right so i will miss this
Chest - 91.5cm
Bicep - 30.5cm
Waist - 83cm
Hips - 107cm
Thigh - 63cm
Calf - 37cm

21/11/2006 (7 weeks down the track)
Shoulders 96.5 (up 1 cm from other measurment 3 weeks previous)
Chest - 87cm
Bicep - 30cm
Waist - 69.5cm
Hips - 103cm
Thigh - 58cm
Calf - 35.5

So there has been progress it is slow and steady and in other places it has been huge ie my waist. However i can still see room for improvement and will not be happy till, well i dont know when actually, i can see myself on this journey for a long time yet.

Satisfaction

Phew, with lots of patience i managed to get the site to work for me.... Will keep adding bits and pieces as i find them. My next challenge is to get a photo up there..

Will be in touch

frustration

This is just a quick post to appologise for not having more links on my page, i have had tears of frustration today as i cant seem to post anyone elses blogs on there, i have been into the template and trying to fix the code's and things and have caused myself a headache in the process. Not really happy about it, but there does not seem to be much else i can do....

Having a bad day.

week 8 day 1

The weeks are ticking slowly by and i feel that every time i blink the week changes!! I had 2 days in Mildura this last week, so that was a challenge with food and also training, but i done my best and even managed to fit in a session with Sue - fixed my form and a few minor miss haps that i had, i hurt for a day or so afterwards it was great .
Over all food has been pretty good and training has been fantastic, have been enjoying it and getting to that point of MMF where i sometimes struggle to walk out of the gym and still look coordinated and make my legs and arms work the way they should.
I pushed myself realy hard over the weekend and fit in 4 cardio sessions YAY, my new best friend is the stepper i love it.... it is however quite painful (good pain) and i go through an interesting process of enjoying it for the first 20 or so minutes and then it starts to hurt and i can get through another 10 or so minutes and then i spend the next 10 arguing with myself that if i get off i have failed myself and i wont have the butt that i so desperately want!!! and it takes me that long to talk myself around and then before you know it i have done 40 minutes.
I have however hit a bit of a platau and i have not moved much in cm for approx 3 weeks, i measured myself this morning and found that there has been no change for 3 weeks, not sure what is going on as i am pushing harder than ever and feeling the burn on a daily basis.
And my other issue is my spare tyre, i cant shift it, dont know what is going on i am doing my hardest with all my crunches and core exercies and plank thingies. My upper abs are looking pretty good and i found when i was drying myself the other day i saw the top 2 abs, it was a nice surprise!!!
After reading one of Sue's posts on the forum about reasons you know you are preparing for a comp, very funny!!! I went home and had my partner show me how to "flare" my lats out it took a bit of practice but i got it and wouldnt you know it there i was standing in front of the mirror and i could see my lat muscles out past my torso, it was great.... I do however need to get rid of some of the extra weight on my chest!!!