love the muscle

Had a bit of an off week this week where work seemed to just take over my life and consume everything... I was working 12 hour days and therefore unable to get to the gym - did get there earlier in the week and then late in the week but missed a few days in between. Not much i can do about it really. Although this week has been a real week of personal discovery for me both physically and psychologically. I have realised in the last few days when i flex muscles you can actually see them under my skin!!! YAY and there is starting to be some real definition especially in my quads and when i flex my upper body you can start to see my bi's and tri's and also the upper part of my chest mucle where it runs into my shoulder and arms.... its quite facinating really.... :D LOL. As a result i am like a kid with a new toy... always in front of the mirror trying to flex something....
Psycholgically i am just so proud of myself... and i feel really good about my body immage - i can walk out my door and be confidant in what and who i am and no matter what that is ok.... Although i can see some need for improvement in certain area's but i get up every morning and smile at myself and say "i look good" and not feel guilty about accepting someone's compliment when they give it to me.
Gym - i worked as hard as i could and spent a day or so sore from pushing with weights, but enjoyable..... I have been really working my legs in the hope to lift my rear a bit more.... and working hard on my chest and back... i would love to have defined back muscles... not there yet but apparently when i move a certain way my partner says that they can be seen....
Food - been pretty good not much to report there - have been experimenting with protein shakes and a few protein bars as they are both needed for some days at work when i am too busy to heat up a meal. Have changed protein powders which has made an improvement as the one i had was just all shades of wrong, and i couldnt get through it.... But i got musashi chocolate and that seems to be ok at the moment. Will get some of the new product from Sue when it becomes available.
Crashed a bit mentally this week with work and wedding plans... neither seem to be working well for me and i am not liking either much.... Thank God training is working well for me.... Getting into to silly season with race day's and christmas party's has been good i have been able to arrange being on call for those so this way it is a good excuse not to drink... Not everyone understands the no drinking policy that i have created....
As always i have raved on enough..... I am looking at starting my new challenge already, As much as i have struggled through parts of this one, and i know some people have copped the brunt of that in a few emails of my complaining and asking stupid questions... I am over that "hump" and am ready to keep moving... i can now see this as a real lifestyle program and not just a quick fix and something that i can continue for a lifetime.... simple and sweet i like it. Have briefly spoken to Sue about my next program, i have called it "muscle in march" as that is when my wedding is and my goal is to have lean muscle that is defined by then... i think it is realistic and achieveable to aim for that.... To get it done in time i will have to start on xmas day.... not good but fixable. I think i will start a bodybliz comp then as well - i didnt enter one this 12 weeks, but i think i will next time.... Cant wait.